Bad News

Of course the huge dump of snow (34 inches in 24 hours) happend on the Thursday I went to do the labs, dr., pet scan, dr, chemo thing. Bad enough beginning. Jim dug the car out and took me in. Had all stuff done, and when went to dr. afterwards my pet scan results were in for dr. to look at. Here's where the bad news begins. The tumor was much bigger and of course full of cancer. There is also bone involvement now, and multiple lymph node involvement (there were 3 spots before didn't ask how many more). Any very bad news. Still not as bad as I was before the first treatments, but much worse than after them. He gave a 5-10 percent survival rate, but doesn't' believe in them because so much can be done to skew results. He wanted me to be admitted for hospital stay infusion. 5 days of 24 hour chemo. I could start Friday, wait the weekend, and maybe push over to the new year to start. Talked it over with Jim and we decided to start it Friday. Might as well get it over with. There's a chance I'll be out on Christmas day, but we don't know for sure. As to what waits next I have no idea.

Anyway the doctor still seems optimistic and hasn't ruled out the transplant. If he does that than I think that's pretty much it. But if he hasn't given up then I guess I won't either. Will just take me longer and harder pull to get to the end.

There was a cosmic message sent to me: I lost my cell phone on Weds. Thursday when I noticed it missing Jim let me use his phone. Called work and had Kari look in my room to see if I left it there, nope not there. When I got to the car called and again didn't hear it. Got home and called it and still didn't hear it. By now I was in a panic not only all my phone numbers were in there, but that was the number for all the medical calls. Anyway, I decided I'd try one last time. Put on my mucking boots, and stood on porch and called the number. WOWOWOWOWOW heard it. Called again (voice mail picked up) and tracked it to the edge of the parking space in the snow. Jim came out and went to where I had an idea and slowly shovel by shovel (2 tiny shovel fulls later) there it was at the edge in the snow. Could have been stepped on or more snow put over it at any time. Took it inside, took of the case and dried it .... IT STILL WORK!!!

I've decided that if my cell phone could make it 24 hours buried in snow and still work, then by gum I can still beat this cancer!

Love to all

Sue